October 29, 2010

29/10/10

today is 29/10/10 
today i am very sad due to some emotional problem
i have made a decision 
i din think that i have a right decision and i also have not made a wrong decision
most of the time i made a decision and i will not regret bout that decision
i did not say that i want to break with him but 
just give me a month time to think over by myself.
i hope that by the time i think trough it i wont do this painful decision
and i hope at this time we both, 
will know each other more and more
for this decision i have made, i hope nt to make this decision agian in the future 
i really do not want to make this decison again.
lastly how the time will go really fast 
as fast posible to 29 of november 2010
love you so much

October 9, 2010

i have a story about love

i have a story about love to share
A- a girl
B- a boy that deeply love with the girl
C- a boy that A met few days ago
                
                      The story starts like this, A and B were in love with each other for a long time, they met in the Internet and they are so into each other. im not gonna talk bout A and B cos they are not very interesting. im talking about A and C. A and C met each other from a friend in the Internet. they met each other for about 3 months and onli chat for about couple of times. One day when A was talking to C, A ask C 'do you have any girlfriend?' And C says 'no because no one love me'. so A was joking and says 'if no one love you then i love you' then C says 'okay then u be my girlfriend' then A says 'erm i hav boyfriend adi' then C says 'erm never mind, jus dun tell your boyfriend' then A agree with C. Later they have a very happy and lovely conversation. At that time A is dating with two person. A was very happy until. 
                    One day, C is so cold to A. then A sent a massage to C that A is worried bout C. C seems to be quite busy with C's work and did not bother with A. One day, A really miss C at that moment and A wrote a confession that is private and it goes like this, 
                    ''i miss u alot can u online now i really want to talk to you .. miss you so much this days ... i dunno y i felt that way i am feeling now i think like i said i am already in love with u ... if i hav met u earlies and u have told me earlier then i would nt b dating with B and we can be lovely sweet couple ... i dint know that i will fall for another guy so easily ... mayb i hav a very good communication with u. mayb becoz we both are so open ... i really like the conversation we have made ... i love ur humour and funnyness of u and lots other ... i jus hope that u are nt scare of me and nt talk to me cos i really wish that i still can talk to you if u dun want me as a gf then fine we can still be frenx i dun mind really its jus that i dun want to loss both. i dun want to loss u bt i also dun want to loss B, i knoe i that selfish believe me i think i will give up on someone oneday and i will nt regret my choice .. no matter what please keep talking to me ... i really have lots of fun during our conversations ... miss u lots ... i always wonder when you will online. i always want u appear online when ever i online. lastly i want to tell you i miss you so much ... i really would want to hear your voice and keep it in my heart jus for myself to listen when ever i want ... i wont let anyone in the world know that we are in love before ... I LOVE YOU''
                 After a week, C deleted A from his life. A was so devastated she started crying and trying to fix the problem. A felt that she has done wrong and felt she is too forceful to C. Once C has deleted A, she wrote a msg to C that she confess to him. the summary is like this 
          '' confess to you that i did fall in love with you ... and i dun want to force you on adding me back ... i love you and would like you to keep it as a secret for life.''
               i guess that the summary of the msg. back to the story. And C did not bother A. A keep on thinking that did C see the msg. and lastly later A send another msg that is like this
''can i know the explination of why you delete me ... promise no to bother you ever again''
and this is basically the story...
later in the week A realise C deleted her


there are questions i still have in my mind that cannot figure out
Why does C have to delete A?
What has A done to make C delete A?
and Did C read the massage A write?


P.S the 'I' in the ' quatation marks- " ' is the A talking 
and 'I' with no ' quatation marks-" ' is the write ' me ' 
thanks reader please do not misstaken me with the main character in the story. 
thanks very much 
please give abit of comment and please answer the qusetions. thanks