Confused

i would not know what to say ... i just fall in love with my besties ... my heart really hurts so much ... she dont like this man ... but she is going out with him ... i do not want to think about it because this is jusst being ridiculous .... i hate myself for falling in love with her. i know that she does not love me how i love her. and she did tell me that we would not ever happen as a couple. i dont how to keep this feeling in myself ... we had a close intimacy ... maybe is just because she was drunk that time ... my love have to always keep to myself :( .... 
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