My interesting experience

this is the first ever post i have ever posted since a long time. i do not know how long it has been, but anyhow, i am here again because things has gone so wrong but so right at the same time.

i have a new boyfriend called gingee. i think he is a wonderful, kind, hilarious and brilliant man. he takes his family very important and i think its a good fact to have. we went to meet them. i seems like i did not put interest in his family, but how i felt was like they do not want me in the family or some sort. his bro thinks that i only wants to date him because i want his wealth and i am being rude as i did not talk much. he also evaluate me that i am a very cheeky person because i pinch his drinks and always joke about buying things for me. i appreciate that he stands up for me for now. his queen thinks that i am very rude because of being shy and some how uninterested to talk to them. i did make my effort to talk to them when they accused me for doing something so small to text my family that i got kicked out of the house one day earlier. i did not impress his mom or brother. i did not impress myself either. the way they treated me was so bad.

i have done bad to him and how his family looks at me. i dont understand how come we will not get any future ?
if we ever get marry is not his family marrying me ... is him marrying me !!

♥Sumie1314♥3-yann♥

Dear Yuuki, Goodbye

Dear Yuuki Chan,
i am here to say goodbye to you and i will always miss you. i had such fun with you and a amazing time with you. only two status pressed your button and your family too im am really so sorry. i wish that we still will be friends after this period of time i think i will try to talk to u again if you want after your trip to not stress you out.
i had such a good time with you. you are the best man i have ever met. you took such good care of me and treat me like a babe. i wish someday we god let us be together again and i would die happy.
goodbye yuuki chan i will always miss you and love you so much.
♥Sumie1314♥3-yann♥

So confused

I have to confess I am very confused of myself sometimes. I don't understand what's up with me. I know have an awesome gingee and I do really like him to bits. However, no idea why my brain keeps wanting to be stupid and remind myself stupid things like Ohh ... That person have this and that person is that and that is so annoying and that is so grrr. I say I am not jealous of anything but it seems like i kind of is maybe. Couple shirt , rings photos ... Hmmm I do want them but not unless he wants it willingly thou. We have taken photos of each other a lot but not together like that ... I really want to be all cute with him ... But at the same time me and gingee is not like that I think. If only I know what's up with me and what I am thinking !!

Lately he is not with me and I feel a little lonely and I know he has been busy from work. I hope he will be back soon so I can feel the love all over again. I think I like the relationship of not having me lovely little gingee. It make me appreciate him and our relationship so much. I think I am just being such an arse hole at time. And I hope he can stand my craziness .... X

13 days till ...

Its been about two weeks that my gingee man has not been with me. It sounds like we broke up but no ... he only went to holiday for 1 months. The first week I have been on my worst behavior.
I think that I have been liked by an awesome guy. So understand and fabulous ... I didn't regret on doing anything ... Because everything I have done leads me to this awesome man !!
I am having a terrible time me living with out my gingee. And I always says that I am not jealous of my ex d*** head .... But he is getting on me now really. They keep putting pictures of them getting marry and ever going on date photos. I really don't understand myself really. I'm so stupid to be obsessed with that.

My feeling x

I really have no idea what's up with me ... I want to know thou ... It might be man might be me I just wanna know. I want them to talk to me that's all. I have done nothing wrong .... I miss him and him and him :( Xx I don't understand what is going on with me. My little heart hurts :( I say I won't do something stupid Xx I really want to try not to do anything stupid

dear my cloud

I know I have done many things wrong and always been so stubborn. I will not blame anyone except me to our break up. I my feelings has been up and down since ur leaving from me .... I felt that ur my missing piece that is in me. I try so hard to focus on other things but you have been always in my mind when ever. I never knew that ur so important to my heart, and life. I tell you now that ur always my first no matter what other people say about our relationship. my love for u has not change since ever. I will not apologies for what ever I did not do that u suspect me. I can swear to anything with my life that I am honest to you from the time u gave me another chance to me. I wish that we would have another chance for what both of us have done wrong. And I lastly and honestly would wish that we are true love but until now I wish that I will not drop tears over you ... I miss you so much Xx I love you x

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sad :'(

I don't know what is wrong with me as I have actually like a person which is much mature then me .... It's annoying so much !! Xx why can't I just be with some one that I actually like ... I know that this person likes me too ... Bt he don't dare to tell me cos he might be scared of his ex ... I always like him in many ways ... I try to keep my distance with him ....  but some how its just seem to come back ... I really hate myself either I have been really weak and he have been weak too ... If only he is less mature then me then or I am as mature as him, I will be really happy with it .... I want to be with this person really badly !! I need to stop myself .... I need to get rid of myself from thinking of him .... I just want to love someone I really care ... And he really cares of me ... I know everyone will says that I'm crazy and stuff .... I will stop myself loving him someday ....

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