29/10/10

today is 29/10/10 

today i am very sad due to some emotional problem

i have made a decision 

i din think that i have a right decision and i also have not made a wrong decision

most of the time i made a decision and i will not regret bout that decision

i did not say that i want to break with him but 

just give me a month time to think over by myself.

i hope that by the time i think trough it i wont do this painful decision

and i hope at this time we both, 

will know each other more and more

for this decision i have made, i hope nt to make this decision agian in the future 

i really do not want to make this decison again.

lastly how the time will go really fast 

as fast posible to 29 of november 2010

love you so much

i have a story about love

i have a story about love to share
A- a girl
B- a boy that deeply love with the girl
C- a boy that A met few days ago

                

                      The story starts like this, A and B were in love with each other for a long time, they met in the Internet and they are so into each other. im not gonna talk bout A and B cos they are not very interesting. im talking about A and C. A and C met each other from a friend in the Internet. they met each other for about 3 months and onli chat for about couple of times. One day when A was talking to C, A ask C 'do you have any girlfriend?' And C says 'no because no one love me'. so A was joking and says 'if no one love you then i love you' then C says 'okay then u be my girlfriend' then A says 'erm i hav boyfriend adi' then C says 'erm never mind, jus dun tell your boyfriend' then A agree with C. Later they have a very happy and lovely conversation. At that time A is dating with two person. A was very happy until. 

                    One day, C is so cold to A. then A sent a massage to C that A is worried bout C. C seems to be quite busy with C's work and did not bother with A. One day, A really miss C at that moment and A wrote a confession that is private and it goes like this, 

                    ''i miss u alot can u online now i really want to talk to you .. miss you so much this days ... i dunno y i felt that way i am feeling now i think like i said i am already in love with u ... if i hav met u earlies and u have told me earlier then i would nt b dating with B and we can be lovely sweet couple ... i dint know that i will fall for another guy so easily ... mayb i hav a very good communication with u. mayb becoz we both are so open ... i really like the conversation we have made ... i love ur humour and funnyness of u and lots other ... i jus hope that u are nt scare of me and nt talk to me cos i really wish that i still can talk to you if u dun want me as a gf then fine we can still be frenx i dun mind really its jus that i dun want to loss both. i dun want to loss u bt i also dun want to loss B, i knoe i that selfish believe me i think i will give up on someone oneday and i will nt regret my choice .. no matter what please keep talking to me ... i really have lots of fun during our conversations ... miss u lots ... i always wonder when you will online. i always want u appear online when ever i online. lastly i want to tell you i miss you so much ... i really would want to hear your voice and keep it in my heart jus for myself to listen when ever i want ... i wont let anyone in the world know that we are in love before ... I LOVE YOU''

                 After a week, C deleted A from his life. A was so devastated she started crying and trying to fix the problem. A felt that she has done wrong and felt she is too forceful to C. Once C has deleted A, she wrote a msg to C that she confess to him. the summary is like this 

          '' confess to you that i did fall in love with you ... and i dun want to force you on adding me back ... i love you and would like you to keep it as a secret for life.''

               i guess that the summary of the msg. back to the story. And C did not bother A. A keep on thinking that did C see the msg. and lastly later A send another msg that is like this

''can i know the explination of why you delete me ... promise no to bother you ever again''

and this is basically the story...
later in the week A realise C deleted her

there are questions i still have in my mind that cannot figure out

Why does C have to delete A?

What has A done to make C delete A?

and Did C read the massage A write?

P.S the 'I' in the ' quatation marks- " ' is the A talking 

and 'I' with no ' quatation marks-" ' is the write ' me ' 

thanks reader please do not misstaken me with the main character in the story. 

thanks very much 

please give abit of comment and please answer the qusetions. thanks

Party of Iza and Bekah

yeaterday was 18th of september

i had a very fun nite with my friends that i love very much

but i actually felt really sad at the end of the party 

cox that time they put on the salsa music and they had fun

but i din coz i dun have a partner to dance with 

mostly i had fun

i dun want to tell anyone to hurt anyone's feeling

she keep calling me to tell her bt i really dun want to tell to hurt her

and other friend 

I DUNNO WHAT TO DO NOW AHHHHHH ????????

haizzz

OMG ... today was my first 6th form day 

its really really boring

because there is nothing to do there

my first math leasson is quite alright 

i liked it but the questions are quite difficult 

haiz some of the question i cant do

mayb ask someone then can ... i think

love my class tutor 

he is fabulous

hehe

thats all i think ... just that ... 

love him so much

last song

i actually cried for this movie 

its so sad and yet so romantic

love the qoute that says

'everyone make mistakes, even the one they love'

that movie is very touching 

the last song poster

the main male character is like hot 

and fit and most importantly handsome

wowow

like him alot

(jus hope he din see this :P)

his names Liam Hemsworth

he's 20 and Australian

din know Australian is so handsome

ohh lastly 

everyone have to watch this show its so touching

this show will make u cry until ur pillows are wet 

Haizz i jus got my exam results

haizz

i jus got my GCSE results lo

haiz quite gud that i pass all the subjects

but i din gt a gud grade in dance that is quite disappointed 

i jus gt a C in dance so nt very happy bout that

im quite happy overall 

gt 1A 2B 5C and 3D

haizz

so disappointed

haiz 

i would want respect

whats respect to me respect is to give attention to the person 

and with more care and as my mum says ' heart'

i would want some respect from ppl i love

and even ppl i know

i know i dun give respect to all the ppl i met 

i am trying my best to give respect to all of the ppl

i do give all my respect to the person i love. 

so i also want respect from ppl

if ppl respect me i will definitely respect them back

plx ppl dun think im stupid and idot

i still hav a brain

and also have feelings too

if u dun know bout me then i will tel u abit bout me

first of all im a person that love to think alone 

so i will think lots and lots with out any reason 

im a person that will think bout lots of reason why sumthing do nt work

or someone do nt shows up

or of the event do nt run properly.

i will always blame it on myself no matter what have gone wrong 

or no matter the things i did wrong or i did nt do wrong

i always says sori to the one i love cos i felt that i done wrong bt i have dun nothing

i will also make up stupid reason to lie to myself of ppl nt showing up when they have to show up

i need reason before i finding out myself

if i found out that the reason myself this person do nt hav a happy ending on that day

i dun always remember ppls wrong doing

but i will jus remember the wrong doing for the whole day 

even when it is during at night

so this is basically how i work( my brain)

so next time to who ever hav promise me or want to meet up wif me

plz if u have any problem came up to u 

plz plz tell me before i find it out myself

or i phone up or text up to who ever.

or else u dun know what i gonna do to u on that day or the next time i meet u.

attention to all my frenx and my 2 sis.