So confused

I have to confess I am very confused of myself sometimes. I don't understand what's up with me. I know have an awesome gingee and I do really like him to bits. However, no idea why my brain keeps wanting to be stupid and remind myself stupid things like Ohh ... That person have this and that person is that and that is so annoying and that is so grrr. I say I am not jealous of anything but it seems like i kind of is maybe. Couple shirt , rings photos ... Hmmm I do want them but not unless he wants it willingly thou. We have taken photos of each other a lot but not together like that ... I really want to be all cute with him ... But at the same time me and gingee is not like that I think. If only I know what's up with me and what I am thinking !!

Lately he is not with me and I feel a little lonely and I know he has been busy from work. I hope he will be back soon so I can feel the love all over again. I think I like the relationship of not having me lovely little gingee. It make me appreciate him and our relationship so much. I think I am just being such an arse hole at time. And I hope he can stand my craziness .... X

13 days till ...

Its been about two weeks that my gingee man has not been with me. It sounds like we broke up but no ... he only went to holiday for 1 months. The first week I have been on my worst behavior.
I think that I have been liked by an awesome guy. So understand and fabulous ... I didn't regret on doing anything ... Because everything I have done leads me to this awesome man !!
I am having a terrible time me living with out my gingee. And I always says that I am not jealous of my ex d*** head .... But he is getting on me now really. They keep putting pictures of them getting marry and ever going on date photos. I really don't understand myself really. I'm so stupid to be obsessed with that.

My feeling x

I really have no idea what's up with me ... I want to know thou ... It might be man might be me I just wanna know. I want them to talk to me that's all. I have done nothing wrong .... I miss him and him and him :( Xx I don't understand what is going on with me. My little heart hurts :( I say I won't do something stupid Xx I really want to try not to do anything stupid

dear my cloud

I know I have done many things wrong and always been so stubborn. I will not blame anyone except me to our break up. I my feelings has been up and down since ur leaving from me .... I felt that ur my missing piece that is in me. I try so hard to focus on other things but you have been always in my mind when ever. I never knew that ur so important to my heart, and life. I tell you now that ur always my first no matter what other people say about our relationship. my love for u has not change since ever. I will not apologies for what ever I did not do that u suspect me. I can swear to anything with my life that I am honest to you from the time u gave me another chance to me. I wish that we would have another chance for what both of us have done wrong. And I lastly and honestly would wish that we are true love but until now I wish that I will not drop tears over you ... I miss you so much Xx I love you x

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sad :'(

I don't know what is wrong with me as I have actually like a person which is much mature then me .... It's annoying so much !! Xx why can't I just be with some one that I actually like ... I know that this person likes me too ... Bt he don't dare to tell me cos he might be scared of his ex ... I always like him in many ways ... I try to keep my distance with him ....  but some how its just seem to come back ... I really hate myself either I have been really weak and he have been weak too ... If only he is less mature then me then or I am as mature as him, I will be really happy with it .... I want to be with this person really badly !! I need to stop myself .... I need to get rid of myself from thinking of him .... I just want to love someone I really care ... And he really cares of me ... I know everyone will says that I'm crazy and stuff .... I will stop myself loving him someday ....

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Confused

i would not know what to say ... i just fall in love with my besties ... my heart really hurts so much ... she dont like this man ... but she is going out with him ... i do not want to think about it because this is jusst being ridiculous .... i hate myself for falling in love with her. i know that she does not love me how i love her. and she did tell me that we would not ever happen as a couple. i dont how to keep this feeling in myself ... we had a close intimacy ... maybe is just because she was drunk that time ... my love have to always keep to myself :( .... 
♥Sumie1314♥3-yann♥

how Leo works ...

i have not have been written in this blog.. i guess it could be about a year or two. i turn to this place because i would not want to offend people. i know this person for about few months nearly a year i guess. This person seem to be a very nice person until this person met the other person that so call her the lover. that has changed this person into a man that i need to be re-evaluate and also re-think. This person seems to be a person that used a friend as a toy and just dump that person just like that. today i had a converstation with this person and seems to be another person. This person seems to be a human with such rude manner and its not him. he hit me directly in my heart.

not one person in this world would ever treat me like a person ... maybe i have offended this person i dont know ... but the only things is that i know what ever i do no one will take me as a true person. not ever my own boyfriend dont treat me as a true person but i do love him a lot with all my heart. this is really strange, this person that i am talking about is not my boyfriend. the person i am talking about is a very close friend of mine that now no longer anymore. i still appreciate this friend. no matter what this person should not be able to see my blog. so this person would not know that i have written this. i hope this secret just leave it here and here is the place that it stands. 

i am not always depress. i am only depress when i see someone that i love don't apprechiate me and i want them to not know how i feel 

♥Dont want anyone to know how the truly feel♥

♥this is how Leo works♥

♥Sumie1314♥3-yann♥